Do not Blame God's love

 A boy dressed in white clean white flawless in red indicating that he was in grade school, down the street to be on a door that seemed to call him. Forcing the desire in his soul that makes the pace faster. The child began to enter the greeting with a face beaming.

"Assalamu'alaikum ..." he said slowly, throwing his bag into the bed that seems pretty soft until the bag was bouncing back. Then the man rushed into the living room.
"Wa'alaikum regards, How the test? Can you? "Asked a woman who looked like mothers from behind the visible space was washing dishes. The sound of gurgling water shower on the plate as if to accompany the event.
"Mirza!" Mother said it was a little loud while continuing cucianya.
"If I can not not possibly have gone home Mom, and one more thing is the UN, not the usual test" Mirza replied in a tone as he approached the lazy orange cat who fell asleep on the couch rubber green color of leaves.
"It is easy what is difficult?" Asked her mother again as she turned off the taps and connected wiping plates.
"Easy" Mirza replied, stroking the cat's neck. It also looks delicious cat with closed eyes holding her head. Mirza is a bright child. But not smart enough to control kesombonganya
"It's easy means 100, you know ..." His mother said meremehkanya. Her mother then walked into the living room and sat down on the couch with a remote distance.
"Halah, I am currently doing nyuruh 100? Own mother never really "Mirza replied.
"The boy was supposed to be smarter than their parents. Not to be smarter than their parents. Ntar embarrassing "her mother said, looking into the window. While Mirza just mimicked her mother's words by shaking her lips as if to mock the words of his mother.
"Halah talkative anyway, udahlah Bu ... do not disturb Mirza. Tired of depleted Exam. Want to play with Cats "Mirza said she carried the cat away from the living room. Mirza went into the backyard of his house as he put cat. Cat got up and directing his front legs forward and bend his body down. That's how the cat relaxes the body.
Mirza looks exasperated. Especially now cat sand bath and then licking his body. Mirza just smiled.
"Puss ..." said Mirza call the cat gently. But the cat did not mempedulikanya and still busy with the body and soft feathers.
Serontak Mirza eyes look empty. As if thinking about something. Mirza apparently daydreaming while looking cat.

Cat ...
You're so cute ...
So adorable ...
You're the only one of my friends in this world ...
That is when I'm lonely ...
Alone ...
When I'm sad ...
I was happy when ...
I love you ...

Mirza said in the liver. Then Mirza approached the cat and began stroking her back and soft fur.
"I'm so lonely, I wish I had a sister. I would have been very fond of her "Mirza said very, very softly once. And perhaps only he and God can listen to her talk.

Dinginya night wind began to be felt. The chirping of birds accompany sinking of the sun. The sky flushed Tilawatil Qur'an followed chant recordings of the old mosque speakers. Moments later adzan signaling prayer time. Mirza rushed to the mosque with koko white, black gloves and white cap.
Whatever prayer he lived with sincerity. After the prayer finished, the priest chanting prayers followed by a congregation. But Mirza did not go straight home. But pray to God.
"O Allah, help you treat your taste loneliness. O God, give me a sister. O God, thank you've launched my exams. I made the pass with good grades. Ya Allah make my parents proud. Amen ... "Mirza said the following prayer in my heart. Mirza then rubbed his hand over his face. Mirza got up and hurried back to his house.

Long vacation was over. Now is the time Mirza wrap yourself as a 3rd grade students of MTs. Mirza set off by riding a motorcycle Ninja gift from her father for the first rank in his class. School lived happily as usual until the time finally came home from school, she got the shocking news that her mother had been pregnant two weeks.
How happy Mirza to school every day to continue to think she's smiling crazy by theme. Up to 9 months 1 day perempuanya sister was born safely and named Dania.

Throughout his life, Mirza loving younger brother and never once snapped. His younger brother Mirza always there when in need. Dania moment of fear, when need help PRnya, when asked didongengkan, asked to be taken to the bathroom, to accompany his request. Mirza did not sleep before His sister fell asleep. What big affection Mirza in Dania. So Dania prefer together Mirza than his own parents.

Several years passed and now the 15-year-old Dania. Dania grow beautiful and already understand what it means to love. However, Dania misplaced love. She loves Mirza who is a brother alone. But not mengungkapkanya Dania. He just wrote the book diarynya.

Sister ...
If you know I'm comfortable at your side ...
I know this is called love ...
I just want to be with the two-time ...
Now ...
And Forever ...
Dania said the incision ink on paper. Until now turn Dania who serve her beloved brother. Dania there when Mirza require. Always provide drinks while sister home from work, massaging brother when it was busy in front of the screen, and into the vent of the everyday problems experienced by older brother. Dania do not want to burden His sister with her problems because she loves Mirza.
Dania was happy because he was getting close to her beloved brother. Similarly, Mirza is pleased to be the behavior of younger brother.

Dania happy story ended two years later. Dania moment was cleaning the house smiling because kebahagiaanya, suddenly he was startled arrival sister.
Dania amazed at someone who was with Mirza. Beautiful woman who looks sepantaran with Mirza entered the house with the coupled Mirza. They both looked radiant.
"Assalamu'alaikum ... father, mother, sister ..." said Mirza while calling his family. Soon, mother and father as well as Dania came over Mirza.
"Wa'alaikumsalam, Eh ... this beautiful woman whom Mir?" Asked her mother, smiling. His father also smiled except Dania seen frowning face bend.
"Well, Mom, sister ... It Halizah, friend Mirza time MI, MTs, to lecture and work. This prospective son-father and mother ... "Mirza replied softly.
"Subhanallah Mir Mir ... It's beautiful, what more veiled gini. Sholeha look ... "said his mother.
"Thank ya bu, Mom could have been ..." Halizah said sheepishly.
"Yes Mir, not one you select father-in-law. Let's grandson handsome father and beautiful like her parents. Hehe "Mirza's father said with a small laugh. Dania just shut up and go straight to the room without saying anything.
Everything looks surprised by the behavior Dania unusual. In the rooms, Dania directly lying on her stomach with a closed head pillow and cry. How sad cut Dania heart for love.
"Ap..pa fault Ya Allah .." said Dania with a pillow in front of her mouth silenced. Dania crying incessantly until late evening. However, the cries ignored Dania family. Dania finally forced myself out of the room and undergo day as usual as if nothing ever happened anything.

The days passed with sadness experienced by Dania. The pain barrage unimaginable the pain. Until the end of five months have passed and now has three weeks Mirza married to Halizah.
One moment Mirza went to work and parents lying in the room, Dania looking for an opportunity to meet Halizah. Dania finally succeeded in herding Halizah room. To face fear, Halizah obey sister-in-law.
"Actually I love Kak Mirza. And not love brother to brother. But love like a lover "said Dania in front Halizah. Surprise, Halizah the word Dania. To the extent that his eyes were round because he was surprised.
"And you !!! Must remember. Never you make it hurt ... My brother heart !!! "said Dania rough pointing Halizah head. Halizah only stare as he shed tears without saying anything. Halizah sobbing sad.
"Sob ... sob ... sob ..." said the sad Halizah.
"If it happens, I did not hesitate to act !!" said Dania with sharp eyes and a straight left in the room alone Halizah. But suddenly.
"Hoeeks ..." sound Halizah who vomited and collapsed to the ground in the direction of the mattress. Dania also reversed body and was surprised with the place and screaming.
"Toloong ..." Dania voice that made his parents jerked and quickly help Halizah. Turns Halizah pregnant 1 week.

Soon Mirza came. Dania who fear rushed into the room and lay down. With fear Dania wrote in diarynya.

I am worried ...
Rama Khawatir keadaan Halizah ...
But worried about my brother know that I that has caused fainting Halizah.
But the most I hate it turns out she is pregnant ...
I was supposed to be entitled to the son of Mirza Kak ...
However it was not possible ...
That's contents Dania article written by a gloomy face as the write not himself. Eclipse that covered his face like a black fog. His heart was dark with emotion. I wonder what possessed demons themselves as beautiful sweet girl Dania.

One day in the bright tomorrow, opening new horizons joyfully. Today Dania'm going to apply for a job with a friend seangkatanya. At home, Halizah was pregnant and could not do chores. Finally Mirza took time off and do the job that should belong to Halizah.
Mirza washing, mopping, sweeping and cleaning. Mirza came in Dania room. The atmosphere of the room seemed deserted silent. There are fans who forgot to shut down. Mirza turn off the fan. Then Mirza eyes fixed on a thick book on the table MakeUp.
Without thinking, with curious Mirza took the book and then sat on the mattress. Slowly and relaxed, Mirza opened it slowly. Green book was written, "My Diary" on the cover of the book.
Mirza is only open sheets per share books with ease. And read it with a regular expression. Mirza was shocked when I read the part that shows turns Dania like him.
"Is it true what I see this?" Said Mirza was shocked. Mirza also became interested in the book and read it. One by one page he was open and understood. Till Mirza came on the last page. Mirza was widened when reading

I am worried ...
Alarmed by the situation Halizah not ...
But knowing that I'm worried that my brother has caused fainting Halizah ...
But the most I hate it turns out she is pregnant ...
I was supposed to be entitled to the child of a sister ...
However it was not possible ...

Serontak Mirza eyes and his heart pounding turned firmly. Irregular breath with a swish of his blood which rose signifies emotion Mirza started out. Mirza hands clasped very tightly and slowly lifted.
BRAAAK ... !!! Mirza hand voice that he pukukan MakeUp toward the table and make his right hand was bleeding. The pain can not be felt because he would enveloped her emotions.
"I never thought ... Kk..Kau bear melllakukan perrr ... This artificial .. Dddania ..." Mirza said haltingly as being controlled by the devil.

Now the evening has arrived. Dania home with faces look happy because he had to get a job. When Dania got home, he was surprised because the lights still off uncharacteristically. Dania went in with a little nervous.
"Assalamu'alaikuuum ..." Dania said softly. But apparently there was no answer. Without realizing it turns out he has been awaited by Mirza in the dark living room.
With surprisingly, Mirza got up and took a quick step that makes Dania surprised.
PLAQUE ... !!! Mirza with a slap sound without spending a single word.
"Aduuh ..." said Dania spontaneously followed by tears. Dania unstoppable tears again. Sobs touching Dania make sweet cheeks look cute no more.
"What kaaak A..aku wrong ...?" Asked Dania to sob. With no pause, Mirza answered immediately without waiting Dania completing words.
"One katttamu Appa ... ?? !! You're one of many ... !! You're one of love ...! And the most I hate you, you make my wife suffer ... !! "snapped Mirza makes Halizah and parents Mirza out. They were all surprised by the incident. Mirza's mother is shocked ran save Dania and brought away from Mirza saying
"Ya Allah Mir ... !! What happened ...? "Asked the mother rather loud hugging and stroking Dania Dania head who was lying down on the floor and leaning against the wall.
"I should not have to defend a woman like this ... !!! He does not deserve pity "Mirza snapped at her mother pointing towards Dania are still sobbing. While his father was silent just witnessed this incident. Halizah too.
"What the fuck are you Mir ...? This was the first time I saw the child's mother snapped at Dania. Mir is actually what happened ...? "Mother asked, his face looks sad while against Mirza faces that look very dark.
"Dania turn out like me. Her own brother ... !! And what's worse, he who makes Halizah suffer ... !! "Mirza said that is still with rough bark.
"Stop it dear, it's not true ..." argued Halizah to participate in tears.
"How can you say all this Mir ...? Basically what? "Asked his father with a tone like a parent.
"I have read all of Dania diary ..." Mirza replied firmly. Then Dania dared to speak.
"How dare brother opened. It privacy .. "said Dania, wiping tears from her eyes.
"Shut up, you bitch !!" Mirza snapped again. All the words Mirza was shocked. Dania went back tears. With tears Dania speak
"Why do not you kill me kak? I'd rather die than hurt my heart ... "said Dania are still in tears.
"Well if that's what you want ... !! I hope that the angel of death coming here to your wishes !! "Mirza said more and more violent.
"Husshhh ... I kept your word ..." said his mother. Mirza already giving trouble.
"Stop all this ... I'm offended Mirza was willing and forgiving brother. Why did not you? He loves also not kesalahanya "pleaded Halizah to Mirza. Mirza was silent bow impregnating his wife's words.
"Kak Halizah, I'm sorry for everything I do ..." said Dania on Halizah.
"Before you're sorry, I'm sorry anyway already Dik ..." Halizah replied softly crying emotion.
"Love is wicked. Why was I born into this world feel. If you know so I hope never born in the world "said Dania with a definite tone. Heard that Mirza remembered his past when he wished Dania down to earth. Mirza began to shed tears with bowed head.
"I'm sorry bro ... I'm sorry I hurt you ... I know I'm praying hoping to get sister like you ... It's all because of a sense of loneliness ... But now I waste you ... Once again I'm sorry bro ..." asked Mirza in Dania Dania while approaching and bow knees apologizing.
"Yes, Sister, I still do not understand who is to blame. Why did God have the heart to give a sense of this to me? This one Mirza Kak excessive love me, or my fault that my brother loves himself? "Asked Dania confusion that still burdened the question itself.
"It certainly was not one god who has given love. Because the real love is beautiful "said Mirza, hugging sister and mother dearest.

Tears began to subside. Storm clouds seemed to disappear from their heads. Halizah cry but smile at this event. His father had tears in his eyes a little shyly and came into the room. Dania was wiping tears and began to rise slowly stood mother assisted.
"Well Kak, from now on I'm going to remove deep-seated love for so long. I'll try even though it feels heavy and painful "Dania said sadly.
"I'm sorry brother who has made you hurt Dik ... brother promised to treat the pedihmu until completely healed" consoled Mirza in Dania while she was standing.
"How Kak? Hurt that there is no cure ... "asked Dania with astonishment. Her mother was silent wonder. While Halizah want intervened.
"There is one Dik, Drugs hurt is to love people who have been hurt him too ..." Halizah said softly.
"Brother will try to find you bro ..." said Mirza to redeem kesalahanya.
"Not as easy as it Kak ... Many times a man came to me to offer themselves, but I rejected in vain. Just because I love you sis ... "said Dania complicate brother.
"Unfortunately Dik forbidden love ... You must direct your love arrows to the right people. For sure I promise to treat heart pain Dik ... "consoled Mirza once again that makes Dania smiled and followed Halizah and mother who were smiling.
"Brother promised?" Asked Dania which looks rather pleased.
"I've never lied to you," said Mirza convincing. Dania ran towards Mirza Mirza and hugged him tightly. Mirza was confused between hugged it or not. Mirza turned to his wife.
Halizah just nodded and smiled. Mirza then hugged and smiled. Mirza's mother who could not see the emotion of this incident, go into the room.

I love Kak ...
Now is not love that one again ...
And love like a sister to sister ...

That's the end of the Dania Diary Diary cover his story. And finally a few years later, Dania married to a man who is better than Mirza. Of course Mirza who find a man worthy of her beloved brother.

Then a few years passed Dania blessed with a boy who looked similar to Mirza. How happy this time will Dania new life with his new family.