For You are my second love

The first time I fell in love, first time 7 years old. At that time, it's still too fast for the rest of my children know love. At the age of 7 years of that, I first encountered the word courtship. Because the name of children, pacarannya also as if he were playing. But the feeling was as if still made an impression until now. Memories with him as well as still remembered clearly. but already millions through my second, and I think it is not ordinary love.

My age is now not even 15 years old. Eight years had passed since it was lacking. Woven relationship had indeed ended, when I decided to split up.

And for the second time, I got back in touch. Exactly Grade 2 Junior High School. I like people who have lost the direction of time with him, I always act as they pleased. But why he shockingly naive? after four days we establish relationships without a solid foundation, without thinking, I decided to end it all. Perhaps it is I'm weird, but behind it all I was very fond of her.

Turns out it was not farewell time right choice. Without me knowing in my heart he's still there, whether it's because I sincerely love him or anything. but I am unaware of my heart that said I still love her.

I do not really believe that love. Because we are very brief encounter, without any further approach, we direct relationship. Maybe at that time I was just a lonely, a person in need of encouragement instead of a girlfriend. What about the people that I call friends? Think they have their problems.

The days ku ku live with always hope that tomorrow will be better. Always trying to show that life does not have a problem and I'm the happiest in the world, but it seemed tiring. Everything is a lie.

When my heart felt tired with all this, at the same I always miss him. He is usually leaned his shoulder for me when I feel sad. Where is he now? Why I belatedly realized that he was very mean to me

My brain became confused when I think about why I was sad when I found out she already has a new girlfriend and they were very happy, and very unlikely if I go back in his life and then destroy their relationship. What is wrong with me? Though obviously I said I do not really like it anymore. But why when he looked at me, as if my heart still vibrate? He, my second love, why now he makes me a selfish person? I just want him to love me, I just wanted to just me in his life when love itself is not entirely for her, my heart even now as if to say I love someone else. But why he seemed immortal in my heart?

My brain is not so great to be able to understand the heart, even on this feeling is still difficult to understand. When the name of my first love is still there in my heart, but my heart also confirmed that on the other hand I love the others. And I admit I like to have both.

My second love back saying that he still loves me. The words were like the reason I'm smiling, but not so I heed. whereas clear already, I do love her. But I made him wait. geez, what kind of man am I? why I was so selfish.

Until one day he came again but instead of saying "he loves me" but someone else. My chest felt tight at the time and my heart seemed to ache.

Not always he will always love me, he's not willing to wait forever. I can only hold back tears and said: "Happy. I knew someday you'd find someone more than I ". He simply replied with a smile, and I continued in my heart "But can you love others even though this time, I will always be in your heart and always timeless there?"